~♥~Blessings~♥~

We pray for blessings,
We pray for peace,
comfort for family,protection while we sleep.
We pray for healing, for prosperity.
We pray for your mighty hand to ease our suffering all the while,
you hear each spoken need yet love us way too much to give us lesser things

Cause what if your blessings come through rain drops
What if your healing come through tears
what if a thousand sleepless nights
are what it takes to know your near
What if trial of this life are mercies in disguise

We pray for wisdom
your voice to hear
And we cry in anger when we cannot feel you near
We doubt your goodness, we doubt your love
As if every promise from your word is not enough
All the while, you hear each desperate plea
And long that we'd have faith to believe

When friends betray us
When darkness seems to win
We know the pain reminds this heart
that this is not our home

Cause what if your blessings come through rain drops
What if your healing comes through tears and what if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know your near
what if my greatest disappointments
Or the aching of this life .
Is the revealing of a greater thirst this world can't satisfy
And what if trials of this life
The rain, the storms, the hardest nights
Are your mercies in disguise

Geneology

I love genealogy but i sure am having a hard time with " family " helping me. In My patriarchal blessing it states for me to work on genealogy, So i have been working on it for a couple years now. i have gotten a lot done but not enough. I want help but when i ask " family members" i never hear from them. there have been a few that has helped but when i know that other family members have actual items that could help me they don't offer it or i just never hear from them.
Does the Church of Jesus Christ of latter day saints not teach and remind us how important it is? if so don't ya think that we should support and help each other on this especially when there is somebody that is willing to do the research and pictures and gather information? So anybody I ask if there is somebody that is willing to help me JUST A LITTLE BIT !! PICTURES that I have been asking for ... take 5 min. and do your part to help.
"Genealogies, family stories, historical accounts, and traditions … form a bridge between past and future and bind generations together in ways that no other keepsake can."

Family history research provides the emotional bridge between the generations. Temple ordinances provide the priesthood bridge. Temple ordinances are the priesthood ratification of the connection that we have already established in our hearts. Mother Teresa said that “loneliness and the feeling of being unwanted is the most terrible poverty.” ⁷ The thought that this poverty of loneliness—this being unwanted and separated from loved ones—could extend beyond this life is truly sad. The promise of family history and temple work is eternal connection born of both love and priesthood ordinances.

Brethren and sisters, family history and temple work are the eternal family keepsakes that build bridges. They build bridges between the generations of our families, bridges to activity in the Church, and bridges to the temple. It is my desire that each of us will recognize the great keepsakes we have received from those who preceded us and our own personal responsibility to pass them on to future generations. -Dennis B. Neuenschwander

♥ I LOVE Bryson and Dylan !! ♥

Bryson trying to get the big ball back up to out house
using Dylan's car... Was funny to me


Bryson and Dylan have fun playing with each other, they are soo good to each other and bryson loves to show him new things. I love and adore my boys so much !!! I am very grateful for Bryson and Dylan ... ♥

fun night with the boys

Went for a bike/ scooter ride then just played around on our way home ..Fabulous night !!!

my boys

I love my boys SOOO MUCH.... They are my whole world. They are both soo smart, lovable, handsome, full of energy and make me smile every day . I feel so much gratitude. They are a true blessing for me and i will forever love them, take care of them and always be there for them!!! Thank you Bryson and Dylan !!!

What have I done for someone ....? ...

Well to me service is important weather it is to some one that has hurt you to someone that loves you deeply or even somebody you don't know " yet" ..... I feel good when i am able to cheer some one up or do something nice to someone that has cause hurt or just simply would lighten somebodies burdens... .
About a month ago I learned that one of my clients is having a hard time in there marriage. Sometimes she is happy (or appears to be) and some times she just seems a bit down. I now go to the home 2 times a week. Well I went to clean her house for her and as I show up she did not look at me and she stayed in another room most the time. She would come out to "try" and talk but when she did you could see the sadness. So 2 days later when i went back to clean.. i bought her a nice plant with a card telling her that i am grateful that she has welcomed me in her home and let me help her and what a great mom I felt she was.when i left I put it on her kitchen counter.... She texted me later that day and told me that that had made her day and that she loves the plant.. ( which I knew cause of the ones she did have in her home) and it was nice to come home to a clean home and a nice surprise....
Another time I want to say is one that quite a few people asked me why I would do something like I did.. Well let me tell you...................... A " person" (no names) wrote me an email and told me everything they HATED about me and why and that i was an imbarressment and that I am a failure... this email was probly 5-6 pgs. long.. and about 3-4 months after my husband had passed away.. WELL I knew this person liked my cooking so I made a treat and put it in a cute little bag and put it on the door step..rang the door bell and bryson and i ran..... Never heard a thing.... I have helped others in need in other areas and being a single mom i do struggle at times but knowing that some of the sacrifices i have made to help somebody make a car payment, pay insurance, food. what ever it may be is a sign of love and kindness and that I really do hope that the little efforts i have made and will always continue to make these people, friends, strangers, clients or whomever it may be will know that they are thought about , loved and cared for and i hope only the best happens and that there day will be lightened.....
I look back at the efforts I have made at trying to make things better and there are PLENTY more that i have done but i will never " brag" or make a big deal of it cause then you loose the meaning of service. But I do know that through the growth and learning I have gone through is just making me stronger, confident and knowing I AM A GREAT PERSON THAT HAS A BIG HEART..... so I feel SERVICE to whome ever it may be IS IMPORTANT !!!

Have I done any good in the world today?Have I helped anyone in need?
Have I cheered up the sad and made someone feel glad? If not, I have failed indeed. Has anyone’s burden been lighter today Because I was willing to share?
Doing good is a pleasure, a joy beyond measure,A blessing of duty and love. Was I ther ewhen someone was in need ?

I promise to myself every day .........

I Promise myself to be strong that nothing can disturb my peace of mind.
I promise myself to talk health and prosperity to every person I meet.
I promise myself to make all my friends feel that there is something worthwhile in them.
I promise myself to look at the sunny side of everything to make my optimism come true.
I promise my self to think only the best, to work for only the best and to only expect the best.
I promise to be just as enthusiastic about the success of others as I am at my own.
I promise to forget the mistakes of the past and press on to the greater achievements of the future.I promise myself to wear a cheerful expression at all times and give a smile to every creature i meet.
I promise to myself to give so much time to improving myself that I have no time to criticize others.I promise my self to be too large for worry, too noble for anger, to strong for fear and to happy to permit the presence of trouble.
I promise myself to think well of myself and to proclaim this fact to the world, not too loud in word but in deeds. I promise myself in the faith that the whole world is on my side, so long as I am true to the best that is in me.

what I am grateful for :

The last 2 months has had ups and downs. and so much in such a short amount of time.. I feel to help me be positive and keep going is to write everything i am grateful for...
1. Bryson and Dylan: I love these two boys with ALL my heart. I would do anything to make sure these boys are happy, healthy, confident and know that they are loved and how much i appreciate them. Bryson is sensitive, loving, sharing, cares about people, smart, handsome, creative and he loves to help me !!! Dylan is strong, determined , and sure loves to color (on walls) and loves to explore, take things apart and is quite funny ......
2. Good people in my life: I have some good " friends" in my life. i have made a couple friends though out the years that they are the people that i can talk to every day then every once in a while , but we all stay in touch and no matter what happens we will always be there for each other, whether it is a visit, messages or phone calls. Heather S, meadow P, Sena S, Brindy and Esther and Stephanie B.Sue S, Cliff s (as i was typing this more names came to me)..... So thank you to those that .. listen, understand and care. because those texts, calls, messages have helped me in more ways they will ever know.
3.Work: can't really call it work because through getting my business going i have met some really loving, caring, good hearted people that i love to help. (Every single client that has become a regular client of mine I have some good kind of relationship with that I am grateful for)
Cliff and Helen, Tara, Sue W, Sue S,Lynn,Nancy and Karlie... These are most my regulars , i named these people because they are the ones that have helped me one way or another grow my business by letting people know that i am good at what i do and has helped me get more clients. I clean for these people every week and i will be forever greateful for them and i am proud to say they have become friends and they all have a good name for themselves so i feel at times that I am glad i am here in Richfield and have chosen to build a cleaning business and be where i am today.
4. Church: I have had times where i do go then don't go then go again. But i made a promise to my self that i will take my boys to church every sunday and be a better example to them. I love my ward, neighbors that i have met and I love where I live. I have a really good bishopric and am grateful for all that i live by !!
5. Relationships: Through my life I have made choices that i felt at the time were good for me not realizing who it might effect. (good or bad)There are times i made decisions not caring what the out come may be. Because of those decisions i have hurt people that i have cared about strongly and have lost them . I have been trying to make things right with those that i love and care about. I have a daughter I placed for adoption when I was 21. her name is Emma, I love her and am so happy that she has the Parents she does. I will be forever grateful. I know through that process it hurt people close to me. I feel I made the right desicion for both Emma and my self. I Got married to somebody that My family did not approve of. That again hurt relationships. Married, 2 kids, only 4 years then it ended. I know I may have been wanting that perfect marriage and did everything to make it work to prove that I can do it and that he is a good guy. But when you find that the other person has been cheating, lying, drugs and major abuse in Every way Enough was enough. I went through HELL and pain and hurt and had nobody to talk to about what was going on because I had hurt the relationships because of choosing yet another wrong decision!! I came to a point where i was not emotionally with him because of things i went through ( which NOBODY EVER should have to go through) SO i said to him help or divorce!! 2 days later i was holding our 2 month old and said " so what are you going to do? (yes i said it with attitude.)He then looked at me with like there was no soul , walked to the closet sat down on my exercise ball picked up a gun and shot him self in front of me and my son. My parents rushed down, his parents took 3 days to get from salt lake to St george. when they got there there was nothing but accusations, yelling at my dad and just i feel making things worse. There for goes back to relationships because we never got along cause we had 2 diffrent lifestyles that just didn't ever work out. Since then 3 years later, i have reached out to them and asked if they would have some kind of relationship with there grand kids. they have been over there 2 times in 3 years. Steve (my late husband) dad Mike called alot through the years. He passed away this Easter weekend. we were not told because they did not like how steves funeral went.
I was just in a 2 year relationship that i feel at the beginning was great, but where i had to make most the effort and sacrifices and he expected it... i slowly backed away and we just broke up recently and the things you learn about somebody you thought ya knew...all i have to say is God gives wake up calls and this last experience taught me alot about love and what is really important and i definitely am grateful cause i am stronger and actually realized i am much happier now and i deserve more than he could ever offer !!!!!
Sorry i guess i had to let it out but over all... RELATIONSHIPS ARE VERY IMPORTANT AND I WILL DO WHAT IT TAKES TO BUILD GOOD RELATIONSHIPS WITH ALL THOSE I HAVE IN MY LIFE. I will do what ever it takes to teach my boys and help them have healthy relationships with ALL family members and friends !

So i am greatful for :
My boys, family, friends, work, relationships, home to come to, car to get to and from work and church !!!

Random Pictures...

Easter Egg Hunt

Bryson left a note in my Calender for Work !!! So Sweet

Brysons First cake he made by himself ;)

♥Love my boys ♥

Color Fest ...

Color Fest

Random Pictures

cove fort

fishing, shooting BB gun and a little Drive..

This is where Butch Cassidy would hangout !!

Making Sugar Cookies !!!

Piute Res. Fishing..

Piute Res. We went Fishing at piute Res. it was so cold we didn't stay long ..But they enjoyed throwing rocks in the water ....