what I am grateful for :

The last 2 months has had ups and downs. and so much in such a short amount of time.. I feel to help me be positive and keep going is to write everything i am grateful for...
1. Bryson and Dylan: I love these two boys with ALL my heart. I would do anything to make sure these boys are happy, healthy, confident and know that they are loved and how much i appreciate them. Bryson is sensitive, loving, sharing, cares about people, smart, handsome, creative and he loves to help me !!! Dylan is strong, determined , and sure loves to color (on walls) and loves to explore, take things apart and is quite funny ......
2. Good people in my life: I have some good " friends" in my life. i have made a couple friends though out the years that they are the people that i can talk to every day then every once in a while , but we all stay in touch and no matter what happens we will always be there for each other, whether it is a visit, messages or phone calls. Heather S, meadow P, Sena S, Brindy and Esther and Stephanie B.Sue S, Cliff s (as i was typing this more names came to me)..... So thank you to those that .. listen, understand and care. because those texts, calls, messages have helped me in more ways they will ever know.
3.Work: can't really call it work because through getting my business going i have met some really loving, caring, good hearted people that i love to help. (Every single client that has become a regular client of mine I have some good kind of relationship with that I am grateful for)
Cliff and Helen, Tara, Sue W, Sue S,Lynn,Nancy and Karlie... These are most my regulars , i named these people because they are the ones that have helped me one way or another grow my business by letting people know that i am good at what i do and has helped me get more clients. I clean for these people every week and i will be forever greateful for them and i am proud to say they have become friends and they all have a good name for themselves so i feel at times that I am glad i am here in Richfield and have chosen to build a cleaning business and be where i am today.
4. Church: I have had times where i do go then don't go then go again. But i made a promise to my self that i will take my boys to church every sunday and be a better example to them. I love my ward, neighbors that i have met and I love where I live. I have a really good bishopric and am grateful for all that i live by !!
5. Relationships: Through my life I have made choices that i felt at the time were good for me not realizing who it might effect. (good or bad)There are times i made decisions not caring what the out come may be. Because of those decisions i have hurt people that i have cared about strongly and have lost them . I have been trying to make things right with those that i love and care about. I have a daughter I placed for adoption when I was 21. her name is Emma, I love her and am so happy that she has the Parents she does. I will be forever grateful. I know through that process it hurt people close to me. I feel I made the right desicion for both Emma and my self. I Got married to somebody that My family did not approve of. That again hurt relationships. Married, 2 kids, only 4 years then it ended. I know I may have been wanting that perfect marriage and did everything to make it work to prove that I can do it and that he is a good guy. But when you find that the other person has been cheating, lying, drugs and major abuse in Every way Enough was enough. I went through HELL and pain and hurt and had nobody to talk to about what was going on because I had hurt the relationships because of choosing yet another wrong decision!! I came to a point where i was not emotionally with him because of things i went through ( which NOBODY EVER should have to go through) SO i said to him help or divorce!! 2 days later i was holding our 2 month old and said " so what are you going to do? (yes i said it with attitude.)He then looked at me with like there was no soul , walked to the closet sat down on my exercise ball picked up a gun and shot him self in front of me and my son. My parents rushed down, his parents took 3 days to get from salt lake to St george. when they got there there was nothing but accusations, yelling at my dad and just i feel making things worse. There for goes back to relationships because we never got along cause we had 2 diffrent lifestyles that just didn't ever work out. Since then 3 years later, i have reached out to them and asked if they would have some kind of relationship with there grand kids. they have been over there 2 times in 3 years. Steve (my late husband) dad Mike called alot through the years. He passed away this Easter weekend. we were not told because they did not like how steves funeral went.
I was just in a 2 year relationship that i feel at the beginning was great, but where i had to make most the effort and sacrifices and he expected it... i slowly backed away and we just broke up recently and the things you learn about somebody you thought ya knew...all i have to say is God gives wake up calls and this last experience taught me alot about love and what is really important and i definitely am grateful cause i am stronger and actually realized i am much happier now and i deserve more than he could ever offer !!!!!
Sorry i guess i had to let it out but over all... RELATIONSHIPS ARE VERY IMPORTANT AND I WILL DO WHAT IT TAKES TO BUILD GOOD RELATIONSHIPS WITH ALL THOSE I HAVE IN MY LIFE. I will do what ever it takes to teach my boys and help them have healthy relationships with ALL family members and friends !

So i am greatful for :
My boys, family, friends, work, relationships, home to come to, car to get to and from work and church !!!