Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close

This heart didn't come with instructions

Adapt or die. As many times as we've heard it, the lesson doesn't get easier. The problem is we're human. We want more than just to survive. We want love. We want success. We want to be the best that we can be. So, we fight like hell to get those things. Anything else feels like death
There's a reason I said I'd be happy alone. It wasn't 'cause I thought I'd be happy alone. It was because I thought if I loved someone and then it fell apart, I might not make it. It's easier to be alone, because what if you learn that you need love and you don't have it? What if you like it and lean on it? What if you shape your life around it and then it falls apart? Can you even survive that kind of pain? Losing love is like organ damage. It's like dying. The only difference is death ends. This? It could go on forever
."Does it break my heart, of course, every moment of every day,

into more pieces than my heart was made of,

I never thought of myself as quiet, much less silent,

I never thought about things at all, everything changed,

the distance that wedged itself between me and my happiness wasn't the world,

it wasn't the bombs and burning buildings,

it was me, my thinking, the cancer of never letting go, is ignorance bliss,

I don't know, but it's so painful to think, and tell me,

what did thinking ever do for me, to what great place did thinking ever bring me?

I think and think and think,

I've thought myself out of happiness one million times, but never once into it."

Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close

For what it's worth...

it's never too late to be whoever you want to be.

There's no time limit

You can change or stay the same, there are no rules to this thing.

We can make the best or the worst of it.

I hope you make the best of it.

And I hope you see things that startle you.

I hope you feel things you never felt before.

I hope you meet people with a different point of view.

I hope you live a life you're proud of.

~~♥~~love ~~♥~~

To be nobody but myself -- in a world which is doing its best, night

and day, to make you everybody else -- means to fight the hardest

battle which any human being can fight, and never stop fighting.

Hike to Bridal Vail falls

We decided to go hiking when we went to provo. they were so good in the BYU family history center,we went and got ice cream and hiked to the Top of Bridal vial falls then took about a mile walk on the trail following the river.. It was a fun day .....

♥ faith ♥

So Off and on in my life I pay my tithing.... Well for the last year I have not been so good at it. Well about 3 months ago i hit a rough spot.. lost somebody i cared about. times I still miss him but i am a believer things happen for a reason.. even though ya might feel pain through the process but as I look back the last few months I am happier and everything is great. When we broke up i went back to church.. have gone to all three meetings .( which sometimes i have talked my self out of in the past.) I have paid my tithing every week for the last 2 months. read my scriptures every night for the last 2 month and we now say family prayer mornings and before we go to bed. I have met so many wonderful people. Since then my business has just done soo good. I am back up to 3 homes a day 4 days a week and 1 on Fridays out in bicknell which is worth the drive..(when she pays me). Almost all my customers have recommended me to there friends so i love word of mouth. ( the lady I cleaned for heard about me through a lady that i didn't even know, she had just heard about me from somebody she knew so the girl that recommended me to who i clean for now, i went and gave her a 1 hour free cleaning and went and introduced my self to her and she says she is going to use me.. )and all that I work for are well known and great people. So back to the tithing.. I have a HUGE testimony of tithing.. I know because i am doing the best I can and have had faith in tithing and prayer and have added a lot of positive in my life, i know the lord is by my side helping me along. I am grateful for the gospel, my boys, all that I have, our health, scriptures, my business and all the good example that are in my life. So for those that have been and are in my life and have been a true friend and been there for me and been a good friend Thank you from the bottom of my heart... ♥

fun in the wagon...

**going private**

i have decide to go private............ So any one that wants to continue to keep up on my blog please send me your email address so i can add it to invite you... thank you so much for keeping in touch and reading my blog !!! :)